Look Closer…

Honestly, I thought my Spring Break was horrible. Nothing is worse than coming home and finding out that your family is having major problems.

But, if I’m being honest, I grew up with a broken family. I’ve seen my mom get divorced twice, seen my sibling fight and argue each other. I used to get scared if I saw my brother calling me on the phone. I once told my oldest sister that I’ve spent more than half of my life knowing that my everyone in my family hated each other.

I thought my family got better once I graduated high school. I thought everything was cool and that everyone had grown up and become mature. I was wrong.

Anyway, my definition for family member and definition for friend go beyond the normal sense. My siblings are technically half-siblings, but I’ve never thought of them as anything less than full-blooded siblings. Same goes for my friends — even though we have different parents, Jaskaran and Isaac are my brothers.

We’ve been friends since middle school and best friends since high school. I don’t see a life without them. We’ve gone through some dark times together, but we always hang out with each other because we can make some great times happen. We go by a lot of names, but we’re usually known as the Booze Houndz, or the Buc-ee Boiz. Our motto is “no worries.”

On Friday night, Jaskaran dared me to wear overalls out in public — he’d pay for them if I did dare to wear them. And I did. I wore them out in NorthPark Mall in Dallas. And I kept them on while we went to Deep Ellum. Isaac met us out there. And I had one too many Shiner Bocks along with a few shots of Jameson. I started Saint Patrick’s Day early.

What I mean to say is that I’ve turned to Jaskaran and Isaac for help more than I have my own family. I don’t see a problem with that. I have more in common with my friends than I do with family. And I still love my family, too, despite all the drama.

So when I look closely, hanging out with my friends was definitely the highlight of my Spring Break. Isaac and I made a song together and I can’t stop listening to it. It’s called “We had the Katana”